Today, I find myself in a hyper-emotional state. Or a depressed one. It’s confusing.
I feel like I’m about to cry, but I have no reason to do so.
I feel alone, and maybe lonely, but I can’t really tell.
I’m forcing myself to feel motivated, forcing myself to keep working.
I want something different, but I do not know what.
I want to be left alone, but I do not think I should be left alone. I think I would be better served by interacting socially with someone. Anyone. This is mainly because I am alone at the moment. I could not be more “by myself” if I tried, and it doesn’t appear to be helping.
I may be tired, despite a decent night’s sleep. Caffeine does not seem to be doing the trick today.
I know for a fact that I’m apprehensive about an upcoming doctor’s appointment I have. I’m trying not to think about it.
Running or walking would possibly help, but I do not really have the time today.
Amidst all this, I have to somehow come to grips with whatever this funky mood is in the next hour or two before I collect my children and face an evening with the family. Or, I’ll just sweep the mood under the rug and put on a good face, hoping that it will go away. And maybe it will…